I’m in suuuuuuuuuuch a weird place dude
I feel like nothing’s real ever. I don’t feel anything really except aggressive sometimes
There’s like things I grasp at and recognize more than others but like other things that used to be everything are like echoes and shadows and weird twinges of feelings
Just going through motions and making phone calls I’m supposed to make and flipping laundry around and taking my medication
My dad’s like worried about me and calls all the time and my mom is constantly asking me how I am and how do I explain that I don’t feel anything anymore and anything I do feel is a weird spasm-like thing like being hit with a reflex hammer by someone who isn’t there. And whatever feeling it is it’s really far away and short lived anyway.